Letting Go...

You might think that I don’t love you, but guess again
You might think it’s because I don’t look at you the way before
and start to ignore you, but guess again
It’s just my way of letting you know that I don’t love you
even if in reality and deep within me you’re my hearts desire
Loving you is such a risk
but I don’t want to take the risk of loving you anymore
‘Cause you’ve already find someone
that can take the risk of loving you.
It hurts me badly seeing you in the arms of somebody else
When I should be the one in your loving arms right now
It hurts me badly to see you smiling at her
When I should be the one whom you’re smiling for
It hurts me badly to see you talking to her
When I should be the one you’re talking too
But in spite and despite of all the pains
that I’ve experience in loving you
I really can’t deny that you’re still the one I love
But I guess time help me realize
That no matter how strong my love
You couldn’t learn to love me
It’s hard to accept and to let go
but if it’s the only way to keep me from hurting myself more
Then I’m willing to take
the risk and consequences of letting you go.

Wondering

I been wondering
why I feel this way
When in fact all you do
is just be yourself
Why can’t you love me
the way you love her
Why can’t you see me
the way you see her
Why can’t you do to me
the things you do for her
Why can’t you smile at me
the way you smile at her?
Am I that ugly
and you couldn’t even lay your eyes upon me?
You’re through as they say
But why can’t you still notice me
How long would it take for you to realize
that you are the man that I love?
What would I do to make you feel the way I feel for you
I been wondering are you worthy of my love
or am I just wasting my life of loving you.

A Dream

It starts in a dream
A dream that change my life
In my dream is a man
A man that opens my heart
A heart that is innocent
For the call of Love

He knocks in once
But I shut him down
He knocks in twice
My heart starts to shiver
He knocks again
And my heart says “OK”

He enter to my heart
And marked his name
I thought he stays for a while
But he prefer to stay forever
Oh! My heart beats fast
And so my heart learn to Love

I wake up then suddenly
I feel in my heart
This so called Love
A love that longs
For that man to be true
And yes, He is true

I longed for his touch
To keep me calm
I longed for his embrace
To keep me safe
I longed for his kisses
To washed away my fears
And I longed for his Love
To give me peace

But his love was never mine
For in his heart he felt Love
A love for someone
Someone that breaks his heart

My heart starts to feel pain
That cuts like a knife
I thought she’d give up
But she is strong
She says “I’ll wait”
For him to open his heart again
Then he would let me enter
To fill his lost love

My heart beats fast
And his heart beats fast
His heart is now ready
To give love a second chance

And he chooses to love me
And stay in his heart
He feels what I feel
He sees what I see

Our hearts beat as one
As if it were really meant to be
I thought it would never end
But like a song
It has its end

Then I woke up and realize
It was all just a dream
True as they say
“Dreams are not for real”

Now my heart feels empty
A feeling that I have never felt before
Oh! How long these emotions will stays in my heart?
Maybe forever or maybe not

Only He can fill this emptiness
I feel inside
But his too busy, healing his wounded heart

Its starts in a dream
And ends with disillusionment…

Oh! Love

How many times did I told myself “Forget him”?
But my heart never forgets
How much heartache will I suffer?
Before my heart Stops to feel
How many tears will I shed?
Before my eyes stops to cry
How many illusions will I make?
Before I see reality?
The time is now,
For me to realize that I have been a fool
I’ve fooled myself that he loves me
That he has feelings for me
But all was an illusion
Cause now I see reality
That he doesn’t love me or even care
Oh! Love what have you done to me?